"My Secret Fantasy is to have 3 men at once Mr. Clean to clean the house, Uncle Ben to cook, and Jack to have a good time with"

Mr. Clean did a great job in the kitchen and bathrooms, Uncle Ben... well I cheated and used spanish rice instead ;) And Jack, his butt was a no show. =(

I am hoping he's ok and nothing happened on his drive over here. I wish he would have at least called. It would have saved a lot of worrying on my part.

Somehow I need to get him out of my system. But I just can't seem to. I have such a great time chatting and hanging out with him. Sure it'd be great to have more but I know that won't ever happen. I just hate how he makes me feel... well I like to feel that way, I just hate that it's him making me feel this way because I know there's not a chance in hell anything would ever come out of this.