Alrighty, I finally figured out what to call the guy I share a birthday with. (Yes I know I could just call him by his real name but I don't like to use real names on here.) I was stuck for a while - none of the names I thought of, or he suggested, seemed to fit. While sitting at my desk today, bored out of my mind, I decided to fish around on the name-finder websites. I was looking for a name that meant or conveyed a mysteriousness (not sure if that's a real word but it works for me) because he's very protective about what he shares with me - not sure how he is with his friends as we haven't been in contact in ohhh almost 20 years now. *Wow now I feel old* Since I do know some of his background; I can understand completely why he doesn't rush to open up with just anybody. And it's not like we were the best of friends back when we did know each other. We had maybe a handful of encounters throughout my childhood/teen years. He shared a lot about himself with me, I only wish now that I would have thought enough about myself to know he was sharing those things for more reasons then just "getting to know each other". Alas I was young and had next to no self-esteem. I figured he was talking to me knowing I wouldn't tell anyone and he didn't have anyone else to talk to. Almost as though he had to get it off his chest at that moment and knew he wouldn't see me again so I was a safe listener.
I mean we talk now - we talk a lot. I wish we'd never lost contact with each other. But I've noticed when things start to get a little too personal for him he'll play the flirt card. It's almost like looking in a mirror lol. Seriously though. I know I do this myself, and I'm worse in person. I can open up more with people I've never seen (i.e. on the internet) then I can irl. Flirting is my way around subjects I don't want to discuss. It's a natural "defense" of mine. When I feel myself getting too involved, emotional, attached whatever the case may be; I just flirt my way out of it. Granted, I'm not nearly as blunt as he is. And I never realized how frustrating it can be until we started talking again. I try not to pry into his life too much. Regardless, I've lost sight of my original topic....
Where was I?
Oh yea... So I didn't find any names that meant mysterious. Soon though I saw Alexander which means protector of mankind. That somewhat worked. He's pretty "protective" of his friends and such. I almost went with it; something made me keep looking at the web page though. About 1/2 way through the list I found the perfect name for him!
Miles. Yes, I said Miles. Lol I know it's a little unusual but it works for me. It's a Greek name that means soldier, among a few other meanings. Soldier... This fits him. The most obvious reason of course being the fact that he was active duty the last time we saw each other. Then there's the name itself, Miles. There has always been miles between us both literally and figuratively. (sigh) So that's that. My long lost friend's, for the purpose of this blog, his name is Miles.
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